As soon as I see a cop car on the road, my entire body tenses up. And it remains incredibly tense until the cop turns or takes an exit…just gets away from me and lets me go back to driving in comfort. My natural state of recklessly. It felt so, so wrong to drive around looking for a cop car to not only drive near for a while, but then take a picture of, basically stalk. I was hunting down cops.
This is a completely rational fear to me. As much as I would like to think of myself as a tough kind of chick, I know that it's unlikely I would be able to overpower someone if I was ever attacked. I hate knowing that. I always hope that if I ever do find myself in one of the crazy scenarios I often imagine, that a huge adrenaline boost will give me some freak of nature type strength. I wasn't even walking in a particularly dangerous area, but was still pretty freaked out. I've watched far too much murder television not to assume that any place can be unsafe.
This is a perplexing fear for me. Most of the time I don't take any of this all that seriously. I can laugh off the idea of sharing space with some kind of other worldly energy. But then it's the middle of the night, and I am believing. I am definitely uneasy and pretty spastic when I think some spirit might be lurking about.
An additionally kind of strange thing about facing this fear, the haunted location where this photo was taken is a place I had already photographed so many times. It's actually one of my favorite places to shoot. Months earlier I was working on a project exploring the idea of dreams being a portal to the afterlife and chose this place as my primary location. I attempted to recreate a dream, inserting personal items of my recently deceased grandfather into the landscape. Until I started researching haunted locations in or around Delaware, I had never heard of this spot being haunted. Since I had to choose somewhere to confront this fear, I thought the place where I had been taking my dead grandfather's stuff to would be appropriate. Of course none of the things that were written about this place online happened. We encountered zero ghosts. There was a bit of a creep factor, but I think it was mostly because it was so incredibly dark.
