This is a completely rational fear to me. As much as I would like to think of myself as a tough kind of chick, I know that it's unlikely I would be able to overpower someone if I was ever attacked. I hate knowing that. I always hope that if I ever do find myself in one of the crazy scenarios I often imagine, that a huge adrenaline boost will give me some freak of nature type strength. I wasn't even walking in a particularly dangerous area, but was still pretty freaked out. I've watched far too much murder television not to assume that any place can be unsafe.
Creating an online dating profile is incredibly daunting. You have to come up with a clever name, think of witty and honest responses for the profile questions, hunt down pictures of yourself where you look adorable and approachable. All of it makes me want to just throw in the towel, because I don't need the pressure to be so pleasant. Awkward and/or abrasive is my sweet spot. Not to mention all the weirdos! I mean, I know I'm kind of a weirdo, but there are dudes on online dating websites that are legit WEIRDOS! But seriously, the scariest part of all this is the simple task of putting myself out there and making myself vulnerable. In the end, I came up with a name that I feel really good about. My profile answers could probably stand a revision. The pictures…oh man, I had no pictures of myself! I found myself taking my own photo in my bedroom that night, feeling very douchey while doing it, but trying very hard not to show it on my face. So, I started with just that photo and had a friend send me more to add to my profile later. Just one photo on a profile looks very strange and suspicious to me. I felt uncomfortable from start to finish with this fear.
